Oh and hello

been a longtime not posting here, im only active in tumblr twitter and youtube

hmm im currently studying at dentistry in unlam medical faculty

and im eightteen alr

and life's been good

im still same fangirly and weird girl so yeah

only number of age that has changed lol

hey june

it's june, and i'm in the middle of my final test. wish me luck for it.

i always feel terrible on how i post a blog just once in a month. lol.
like always, i don't have anything worth to say. i probably have, but i forget. i always been. so things i'm gonna tell is usual things like books i currently read, music i currently love and cant get the lyrics over my brain, or movies i've been watched recently. it's boring i know but at least i try ;)

oh! and i have my looklet widget here so you can see my latest look hahah (so not important).

well fifa world cup 2010 has begun since a couple days ago and my favo team is england and spain. i predict one of them will enter the final so let's cheer them! :D
and then, ariel peterporn sextape scandal is sooo boring. they always show up on my tv which is make me wanna puke like seriously!

now let's talking about books i currently read :




i have finished 'marmut merah jambu' by raditya dika which make me almost pissing myself laughing out loud cause it was soooo amazingly funny!
and right now i'm reading sign of four, still chapter two, and it's amazing too.
the last three books, still untouched and unread still freshly new and i plan to read it later on the holiday so i wont get killed by boredom :) fo shoooo

as for music i currently listen to iiiiissss :

1. Katy Perry - California Gurls
2. Framing Hanley Albums
3. Miley Cyrus - Can't be Tamed
4. Justin Bieber ft Jaden Smith - Never Say Never
5. Ke$ha - N-N-Neva Baby
6. 3oh!3 - My First Kiss, Deja Vu
7. Pendulum - Hold Your Colour
8. Shakira - Waka Waka
   
9. Drake - Miss Me
10. dakota Fanning Feat Kristen Stewart - Cherry Bomb
11. Eclipse Soundtrack (Muse - Neutron Star Collision is my favo)
12. Orianthi New Album
13. Lena Meyer New Album
14. The Ready Set New Album
15. Grace Potter and The nocturnal New Album

etc

the last, movies i watch recently is :

the most recent is the karate kid, the previous one was Prince of Persia,

planning to watch this month : toy story 3 (if it's available on my cinema), ECLIPSE in this june 30th ( i believe it's available!) and then the killers (perhaps)

that's it. short and not very clear. i wanna continue studying japanese. i had that exam tomorrow. hope everything is good. xoxo

Goodnight~

i have 12 days off!

well the title describe the main reason why i can finally post again here :) yes i have some days off that allow me to write, and also after a week my internet connection being such a bitch now it's stable!

today is the first day of the holiday and i wake up weirdly earlier than usual, but what's up with that?

and then i am successfully becoming a tweet maniac, which means i tweet much like 100 per day. yeah! and if my account get limited i use the other account twitter.com/lalajunkie.

oh i probably never mention before that i got new iphone from my parents and i absolutely loving it. hype hype hype! thanks god!

currently listening to : Angus and julia stone new album called down the way, and my favorite track is 'For you'



i cant give you a review but all i can say is this album is so easy listening! for the first time i heard it i thought it's kind of boring then i'm becoming addicted to it. so i think you should grab this album on iTunes if you are a music junkie hahaha

right now i'm waiting for my downloads, i really do hope it's gonna be done. i have a little doubt it's not gonna be, let's be more optimistic!


my current addiction. it's so yummy i think i cant get over it! overdose!

oopss

To be honest, i'm totally forgot about this blog and i feel bad about it! my bad okay my bad.

since i have a little time to type something so let's go to the main topic, well, my bad again, i dont have a topic! so let's we random things on my mind.

oh! forgot to say happy valentine's day!



i've got so many homeworks and exams lately, which i'm not good at both of it. so let's hope i get a good score. school still kinda sucks to me but i try to start thinking positive from now on.

i'm still a music and movie junkie. and trying hard to make it balance with study thingy.

gosh, i really want to make a long post today but i dont have anything or any words to type!

okay what about things i love lately? hmm let me think for a sec, hmmm
oh yeah! port blue!
PORT BLUE, is the ambient side project of multi-instrumentalist Adam Young, better known for being the artist behind Owl City. His work is described as "a soundtrack of pacific-sweet melancholy and gentle midsummer enchantment".

i cannot stop listening to it! since i love instrumental, electronic or such a thing, listening to port blue makes me feel great and happy. honestly, each music created by adam always successfully makes me smile, makes my heart warm. and it's true! honestly! it's happen to me! very enjoyable.

now, i'm downloading another port blue album and shit! i hate waiting. i wanna be able to listen to it as soon as possible. while i'm waiting i decide to write this blog hahaha why am i so random for telling that?

now again, port blue - of japan is playing on my itunes and you probably should have your ears listen to it! soooooo great!

aaand here's the official video of justin bieber - baby


i think it's kinda usual and nothing wow but hey he's one year younger than me!

aha my downloads has already finished so i think i'm gonna end this blog by saying goodnight!
xoxo

Into New year, say hello to 2010!

years go by, bener bener ga kerasa udah satu tahun!

hmm my new year's resolutions:

• nabung yang banyak
• punya prestasi yang bisa dibanggakan
• nilai fisika kimia biologi lebih tinggi
• ahh pokoknya to be perfect in every way lah (maunya)
  

Aminaminaminamin :)

sebenarnya pengen cerita hal hal penting yang terjadi 2009, tp kelupaan. selain itu ada banyak kejadian yang wow di tahun 2009, which i cant tell you one by one (padahal emang lupa). oh and semoga tahun 2010 lebih banyak laughter nya drpd sorrow nya!

i'm so happy it's 2010 already coz i'm craving to see piala dunia huahahahaha.

well let me say HAPPY NEW YEAR againnn. May the year bring us Love,Happiness and Blessings. 2010 will be waaaaaay better than 2009!

xoxo

S

(maklum lg obsessed banget sama gossip girl, tiap sms maunya nulis ex o ex o trus initial S kaya Serena hahahaha. i want Jenny and Nate to be Pair up! Serenate is kinda boring i think. loh? ko ngomongin gossip girl? :O )

Seasons are changing

it is sure fucked up feeling that i got when i find this blog is sort of abandoned by me. lately, i'm so lazy to typing something long like two paragraph that is why i rarely update this blog. Sorry. i'm just active in twitter, tumblr and plurk. facebook turn to be so lame like friendster right now. twitter is so simple, tumblr is so easy, and plurk is rather unique. no offense, blogger, i think blogger is kinda difficult, you know? . try tumblr is easier! haha!

sebenarnya 30 menit lagi my conversation class dimulai. and i havent showering, preparing anything. instead i choose to write a blog. weird huh?

i'm done decorating my tree and xmas shopping. i hope this xmas will be great! dang! what i've said? ignore ignore! :D

soo many thoughts in my mind to write but i have to hurry coz i have my convo class starting in 25 minutes! i'm not gonna promising that i will posting a blog some more after this cause you know, when laziness kicks in, so hard to fight hahaha :P so excuse me, i'm off to my convo class

halloween '09

havent been able to write a blog make me feel guilty because of 100% my laziness and i'm out of ideas. since today is october 31st which mean a happy halloween day so i decide to write about it. As you have probably know that in my country we arent celebrate halloween day, i personally want to but people in my country is rather 'difficult'. Pake kostum macem macem ntar bisa di cekal lagi hahaha.

but i got an invitation to attend halloween party tonight but yes it is above 9 pm so i absolutely not allow by my mum.

haduh internet aku connectionnya slowley sekaleee

off to the main topic, well i rather suprised by the fact that Owl City has scored and unexpected US #1 with the single Fireflies. aku kan suka fireflies udah lama ko baru skrg sih ngetopnya? telat banget nih peoples. btw, talking about owl city reminds me of another male singer yang suaranya rada mirip sama Adam Young, yaitu :

☻Christofer Drew/Never Shout Never
☻Stephen Jerzak
☻Chase Coy
etc

pokoknya suara mereka, instrumen, lirik lagu, musiknya semuanya miriiiiiiip banget. dan aku kebetulan lagi suka banget sama musik musik 7 lirik yang sweet kaya gitu. trus entah kenapa akhir2 ini suka banget denger lagu yang slow..

songs that most played :
Chase Coy - 440
Chase Coy - Lullaby
Chase Coy - If the moon fell down
Stephen Jerzak - Alone With The Sunrise
NVN! - Hummingbird
Stephen Jerzak - Together With The Sundown
Owl City - Vanilla Twilight
Chase Coy - My Heart Will Find Rest
Chase Coy - Mockingbird
Owl City - The Saltwater Room
Stephen Jerzak - I'm in Love
NVN! - Trouble
Stephen Jerzak - Cute
Stephen Jerzak - King
Owl City - If My Heart Was A House
NVN! - On the Brightside
Escape The Fate - Harder Than You Know
3OH!3 - Still Around
Hey Monday - 6 Months ← ♥♥♥♥♥

i dont have anything to say anymore, so see ya!
and of course HAPPY HALLOW's EVE!

♥
Sharla

octo october!

"And I hear him singing while he sits there in his chair,
While these autumn leaves float around everywhere."

i've been too busy and rather lazy to write a blog, so sorry for the lack of post these days. well i'm pretty much fine and still drowning im my current obsessions which still the same as i told earlier. musics, korea, fafi, hellokitty, detective conan, la corda d'oro, naruto, cute manga, real madrid, FC Barcelona, Mcfly, Hollywood, Twilight Saga, A Lister, photobooth, slide side candy.

hmm sebenernya masih banyak secret obsessionnya ak. itu cuman sneak peek nya doang. soalnya malu kalo dibeberin panjang lebar *blush* cukup ak dan tuhan yang tahu :)

oh iya forget to mention soeulmate! yeah this is one of my top 3 biggest adoration.

ak gemeeeeesss bngt sama mereka. ko ga jadian aja sih? setelah segudang kesamaan yang mereka punya. satu university. satu kelas lagi. terus banyak banget kemiripannya (cek di sini deh → bumsso). gengsi amat buat confess feeling masing masing. bohong besaar kalo kim bum ga pernah merasa tertarik sama kim so eun yang luaar biasa cute. apalagi kim so eun, ga mungkin dia ga menganggap kim bum itu keren *except she's blind*

barusan nemu foto ini



beuh, mesra bener, apa kim bum ga jealous?
klopun engga jadian seenggaknya main pilem bareng kek, trus ada romantic & kissing scene nya gitu *ngarep* biar fans soeulmate terpuaskan :))

btw it's finally october. yeyyyy tanggal enam belas ini ak ulaang tahun. even i dont really like the idea of growing older but i'm kind of girl who's love the present. especially money money honey hwhwhwhw. and it's autumn. masa masanya ak bersin bersin tiap pagi mao peri ke skul gatau knp :)
senin ini bakalan uts, cuih , i must study harder for a good score.

hmm

recent mood : wonderfuln
recent music : demi lovato - everything you're not

excuses

"Sometimes the truth hurts,
but you have to remember
It hurts even more when you find out its a lie."

i know i'm the type of girl who kind of afraid to speak up my mind to a person. or at least i was. i always wrote on the diary and now in my blog. the rules has changed. something happen lately between my mum and i. that causing me to not hesitate to speak up again especially to my momma. oh god, she's wonderful. i thank her for so many things. thank you mum, for always stay by my side.

then the best friends. i'm such a loser and i know i've been wasting my times being a bitch to you. i always complaining you to be the best while myself forgot to introspect. sorry to you and i've learned my lesson. dont want to breaking the ties with you. cause i know i'm nothing without you.

whoa. sharla lagi dibawah pengaruh bulan ramadhan yang mulia. bayangkan dalam satu hari ini aku udah banyak mikir gimana caranya diri aku yang sekarang bisa menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik dari hari ke hari.

a month of forgiveness. i was a terrible mess. and today i'm fixing up all the broken things.

btw, lagi libur nih seminggu terus turun lagi dua minggu terus libur lagi dua minggu, baru turun lagi!!!

oh iya, soryy banget jarang nge post, kelupaan mulu soalnya ! peace yo!

Pure Cuteness of alexandre♥

i couldnt remember how many times i watch this video. like hundred times, i guess. It shows Alex's sweet side. alex just soo cute when he didnt expect that his friend ( spencer bergen, oh they both really look alike!) makin a video. he was so uncomfortable but he so cute when he shy. it's rare to see he's shy anyway. and yeah his face looks sweeter here. compare to other pics of him which commonly fake by people and on his usual pics he looks like another skinny emo boy not that he would have any muscle or no expressions. this vid is soo natural. watch this video make me "awwww, alex, marry me!!" for real.

oh,i have news and i found it on spencer bergen blog..
The first ever responsive android robot has been created in canada, and her name is Aiko. Her creator, Lee Trung of Brampton Ontario, says that he has been designing robots since he was a young boy. The 33 year old currently lives with his parents in Brampton as he has spent all his money on creating the reportedly $25,000 robot. Currently, he is looking for donors to continue his research and development on Aiko.

For more information about Aiko and her creator, visit http://www.projectaiko.com/

i'm pissed

one question in my mind now,

WHY PEOPLE CHANGE ?

i know it sounds so selfish, cause i know myself change too. but someone(a girl, and i've been talking about her alot times in here) that i'm going to talk about here is just change too far from the girl i used to know. dia udah berkali kali bikin aku kesel dan barusan dia bikin aku teramat sangat kesel. dan lagi lagi dia ga sadar kalau dia nyakitin hati orang. i realise that i was so lame for just accepting her rude words instead clearly say to her that she's so careless of using the words and she doesnt know her words are causing her so many trouble. i used to like her. but she's changing far too much. she's outta my reach. she doesnt understand me anymore. perhaps she thought i am a lame so she can treat me whatever she want to. or perhaps she doesnt like me too. so many probability. she's hurting hell outta me. i was like beggin to her "dont go changing" but she already blind and deaf so nothin left for me to change her back. her friends and lovers makin her like this. or perhaps again, i am the one who's being so lame and not being a good friend for her. yeah maybe iam the one who's changing and turn to be sensitive girl. oh my i got headache again. i need a rest. too much thoughts in my brain.

everybody pissed on everybody, that's it.

pretty woman

i was just read a list of 15 hottest teen celebrities, and the list is..

1. Miley Cyrus
2. Vanessa Hudgens
3. Emma Watson
4. Hayden Pannetiere
5. Blake Lively
6. Taylor Swift
7. Selena Gomez
8. Kristen Stewart
9. Dakota Fanning
10. Jordin Spark
11. Taylor Momsen
12. Emma Robert
13. Shenae Grimes
14. Shailene Woodley
15. Daveigh Chase

well, i kinda disagree because i think Emma watson is the hottest of them. and come on Emma Watson is a waay hotter than miley cyrus and Vanessa Hudgens. maybe because they are from disney (wot?).

i know the actress from number one til twelve. i never heard Shenae, shailene,daveigh. maybe theyre new. atau akunya yang ga update. one thing, i love the name of those three girl. Shenae, Shailene, Daveigh. wow nice name.

i'm google shenae and actually she's the girl from 90210!! haha i never watch this series so i didnt know her!!


Shenae Grimes



Shailene Woodley



Daveigh Chase


ah one photo from hayden pannetiere that stole my attention




















They're such a pretty women!!

got influenced

heyy! lately i've been heard so many music. but i have a special list. and on this i'm gonna tell you each one of those songs which has been caught my attention and make me couldnt stop hearing it. fyi, i'm not trying make some review of the albums or songs. i just wanna let you know and give my personal opinion.

ALL TIME LOW - NOTHING PERSONAL

i describe this album in two words, COMPLETELY AMAZING.
aku pribadi paling suka lagu Hello brooklyn, Lost in Stereo, Sick little Games, Stella, Walls. personally I think its the best album out and the best album All Time Low have made. lirik yang paling aku suka "Under the moonlit skies, we'll be hanging like a cigarette. So stunning, start running Tonight's like a knife, would you cut me with your kiss?" from hello brooklyn. love for this album : ♥♥♥♥♥

BOYS LIKE GIRLS - LOVE DRUNK (SINGLE)

Boys like Girls come back!! walaupun cuma single, tp tetep terpuaskan!! well, single yang satu ini emang BLG banget! aku tau lagu ini pas nge klik music monday di twitter pokoknya most of the results said this song is worth to hear. well my opinion personally, lagu ini kerenn. i absolutely couldn't hear this. my favourite lyrics "I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night. now it's just a bar fight
So don’t call me crazy. Say hello to goodbye." love for this single : ♥♥♥♥


THE PRETTY RECKLESS - I REALLY F***** LOVE YOU (SINGLE)

The pretty reckless is a taylor momsen's band. Taylor aka Little J from gossip girl tv series. well i think she's a pretty good singer. and she said she wrote 100% songs by herself and she's the lead singer and lead guitarist too. yeah, i really fuckin love this song!!!
love for this single : ♥♥♥♥♥



COBRA STARSHIP FT LEIGHTON MEESTER - GOOD GIRLS GO BAD

well, another song from Gossip Girl actress. i like this song and it's make you couldnt stop dancing. "I was hanging in the corner. With my five best friends. I heard that you were trouble. But I couldn’t resist"
love for this single : ♥♥♥



MANDY MOORE - AMANDA LEIGH

this album is fantastic. this album is a little different than the music we are used to listening to, but it still has that Mandy Moore feel to it. i love the song fern dell and I Could Break Your Heart Any Day Of The Week.
love for this album : ♥♥♥ (for the song Fern Dell ♥♥♥♥♥)



NEVERSHOUTNEVER! - THE SUMMER EP

I enjoy every single song in this album. but for the most is Happy!! it's cool song. My fav. lyrics "I'm happy knowing that you are mine.
the grass is greener on the other side. the more i think the more i wish.that we could lay here for hours and just-a reminisce"
love for this album : ♥♥♥


JASON MRAZ - TRY TRY TRY

Supposedly this new song is off a chinese EP. it's a pretty good song. and somehow lagu ini calm banget.. plus easy listening. my fav lyrics "A dirty laundry needs a laundry man. Maybe the king and the queen should lay off the caffeine. Baby breathe before you react"
love for this song : ♥♥♥♥♥


PARAMORE - IGNORANCE (SINGLE)

Here is the first single from Paramore off their upcoming album, it's 3 months left for their new album to comes out.
love for this song : ♥♥




CASCADA - EVACUATE THE DANCEFLOOR

The album is very different than her other albums and I think it's AMAZING. I've been waiting years to hear her sing some regular songs not just songs with the same beat. go hear it!!!!
love for this song : ♥♥♥♥



THE ACADEMY IS - WINTER PASSING (SINGLE)

Seriously, i like this song so much. i know winter passing is an old song. i actually got it in December 2008. and i'm starting listen to it in February and til now i still love it.. The academy is just so amazing.
love for this song : ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥(oops i guess it's too much)

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Okay, that's my special list which had been playing on repeat in my mp3 player.
i often get depressed on something and music is succesfully make my mood right again. so we can say that iam so influenced by music that i heard. haha.

btw, i'm gonna go shopping with famz tomorrow and probably gonna buy new album or dvds. i'll let ya know.

have a great day. and keep listening to your music. (haha i feel like a retardo)xxx

im sick of this boredom or i'm bored of this sickness?

boredom is taking over me again. kayanya memang setiap liburan deh badan aku ga pernah fit. cold lah, flu lah, fever, headache and bla bla. pasti sakit. padahal mo jln kmana mana eh eh ujungnya ya meringkuk di kamar, under my thick blanket, consuming the pills, ah pokoknya rutinitas aku itu itu aja.

thanks to the net which made my holiday a bit better. yeah i've been spent my times by twittering a lot, maen pet society tp pke cheat sih, reading some new books! trus exploring video on youtube and i guess you'll probably wont care but i took french pronunciation online course. free yg pastinya. males banget kan bayar buat pronounce R ala prancis? so far aku baru take lesson 2 sih ya ngucapin R yg baik dan benar which was soooo difficult to me to learn. lidah indonesia kan beda ma lidah french ppl. jadi coursenya itu via video gitu kesannya kita face2face ma orangnya itu. ya biar kita diem jg dia ga tau. aku ambil tentor yg cewe. sexy bgt dianya. hahahaha. oh iya masa aku disuruh nyanyi lagu anak elementary! judulnya Allons Voyager! yang artinya Mari berpetualang gitu lol yah entertain juga sih tp nadanya mirip ma naik naik ke puncak gunung gitu. aku sempet mikir prancis niru indo loh.. tp kayanya kita deh yg niru mereka.

oh also this video has lighten my day :



btw, rencana ke pantai bareng anak2 kelas sepuluh satu bakal di rencanain lebih lanjut tanggal tujuh ini. i hope i will get better soon.

klo dipikir pikir yah liburan di rumah lebih safe daripada keluyuran. kan ga asik banget kalo dapet accident and wont be able to go any where.
awalnya aku ngerasa extra extra extra extra bored. Like, deathly bored.trus ya lumayan deal lah sama boredom ini.sekarang normal aja ga terlalu hepi ga terlalu bored.

but like a normal teenage girl i really wanted to go somewhere new and i'm just conditionally cant.

so you can release your boredom by doing something you really enjoy of doing it.
in addition, the net is a big help !!

would love to say " HAPPY HOLIDAY"

libur telah tiba! hore hore hore!
as you expected, i'm so excited right now. coz. alhamdulillah aku naik kelas ke IA 2 and the rank is still the same. yup nine is could be my next lucky number since my 1st and 2nd semester rank is 9th.

not just that the reasons why i'm so cheerful. it's because finally i be able to escape from school activities. i'm in holiday mood. imagine for a girl who extremely tired of a bunch of school stuff finally have a 3 weeks free days to do everything she want. she will be instantly so happy right?. tp teteup ada aja yg disturbing my plan. tau ga? SO ttp nyuruh membernya gather! absurd. apa mereka ga seneng biarin orang libur? kenapaa sih ada aja minusnya. tp biar lah kita kesampingkan dulu yang penting i have a 3 weeks to refresh my mind and beachh... here we come!!

aku sama anak anak kelas sepuluh satu planning to go to the beach this july 6th. hope everything will be just fine cause i absolutely looking forward of this moment when we finally be able to take a trip to somewhere to having fun and enjoy the last moment.. oh now i'm sad. Bestie aku di skul pd masuk ips.

apa lagi yah? o iya aku kemaren rabu nntn premiere nya tranformers 2 which was so cool. yg blm nntn sangat direkomendasikan buat nntn yg satu ini. pilem nya edaaan keren abis dah.

oh, i wanna say my gratitude for everyone in my life. but for the most i would like to thank to my good gracious god.

i guess that's for now. i will write here more often since i wont be busy for the following day. but if i aint post any blog soon that's maybe because i have so many things to do *jd aku busy ap engga nih?? btw shopping tu kegiatan kan?*

thank you. have a wonderful holiday everyone. bye
xxx

Hello fellas..,

I'm so sorry that i havent post any blog for a long time. i'm just not in my mood to write. i was so busy of dozens tests, tasks, and many other activities lately. oh yeah i also busy of read comics which was soooo fun for me. i read alot of comics and novels. but i most likely read detective conan which i adore so much since i was in elementary school, woohoo that comics really make me curious and hysterical!. i am in hurry now since i have a task to do and i have to print it now and collect it tomorrow. it's exhausting but at least i do that for increase my score. my biology score is bad, my physics is worse than ever, my math is the worst of all!!
so i want you to wish me for a good luck, good score and all the best in my life. thank you.

btw, gaga performance stole my attention, watch her awesome perform on youtube.

have a nice day, you all.
xxx

Bored as hell.

This week is supposed to be so fun for me. no school, no exam remember? but in fact, i spent this whole week with doing something which was so not fun and interesting enough. for worst, i sick. flu,cough,headache ruined everything. dizzy, heavy breathing, cannot sleep well, and i even cannot talk one full day cause my voice is somehow gone. soooo pathetic. that's why i don't have some great stories to write here. my activities during this weeks is sleeping,sitting in front of my laptop, checking my facebook *which was nothing new*, updating my twitter, consuming my pills, nap, going somewhere *and it's still not fun enough to me*, dinner, sleeping. that's it honestly what i did this week. honestly.

twitter became really addicting to me though. i just cant let myself not to update twitter everyday. these days who doesn't know twitter? it's like updating status in facebook. so simple.

well, i guess i have to take some pills so my headache can be gone. wish me fine, cause i'm sick of this sickness stuff and i'm bored as hell! 

put the mask on, right now.

it's fun to act definitely different from one side and other side. somehow made me feel that i am so fabulous for being such a pretender. i was avoid to become that one, but instantly whenever i think i have to put the mask on, i'll do it. how absurd,huh?. but for sure, i put my mask on when i meet, talk with only one people *i'm sorry i don't wanna describe this people completely, but the gender is female*.  She's random and annoy me everytime we had a conversation *or whatever* she's so insecure, it's been proven that she had no little idea that she often hurting my feelings and she's just wear a face that nothing ever happened or it's because she's so retarded and she even dont know of what she said it's actually hurting me so deep?. before, she's a quite nice girl and now on she's turning to be classy,bossy queen. and we're poor people that has to beg her for money. 

the problem is.. she like me and i just cant be so mean to tell her stay away from me. this is hard situation. she's being nice,called me on my phone, my instant messenger,*even though she didnt know of what she said it's annoy me a lot* then i will put my mask on, i wear my nicest-ever-seen smile. but if she's done with me*or the phone call* i put my mask off and sighh alot. she's love to be near me, til myself cant even write on my diary how i hate her because she's always stole my diary and read it out loud in front of so many people. she's upsetting right? that is why i write about her in my secret blog *is it secret?*. oh tomorrow will be the last exam day of this week cause day after tomorrow/monday, i will have a week of holiday. so spirittt!!! i'm happy to hear that at least i have some kind of refreshing time and after a week, exam again.

for the people that i was bubbling about, just wanna tell you that i have ever mentioned about her before, right here in my blog, go check previous post then you'll find out.

Bonsoir :)

what a day!!!! exam exam exam washing my brain fully.

nilai ku bakalan gimana yah? secara, td pas ngerjain matematika mentok abis dah. cuman 10 dari 25 soal yg bisa ak jawabin.. ga nyampe setengah euy. sisanya, saya serahkan kpd yang maha kuasa. 15 soal yang lainnya aku bener bener ngarang. pkoke satu jam itu aku sibuk gambarin kertas coretan aku sama segala macam binatang and lope lope an. trus klo pengawasnya mampir baru deh nulis rumus rumus yang pernah aku inget. ya kalo bahasanya boleh lah, secara banyakan ngebaca. and jujur aja pas bahasa aku ketiduran sekitar 10 menit, soalnya kelasnya adem euymana aku duduknya di paling belakang, pojok, deket kipas angin rusak yang gak misa muter jadinya kena aku ajja. ngantukk lah otomatis. padahal pengawasnya luar biasa killer, tp ntah knp dianya lumayan jinak tuh tadi *waduh, maap bu saya kelepasan omong* yah yah begitulah setidaknya ulangan td aku seratus persen pake kemampuan aku sendiri. no lies, no cheats, i'm just so sleepy. trus siangnya aku nonton sama mama baru deh pas sorenya sadar buat belajar Pkn soal kewarganegaraan n ntah knp td ak kepikiran albrook vanzie. haha imajinasi tidak terkontrol. 

hey hey it's proven right that i'm  truly not a good promise-keeper. right? i kept saying that "oh, i wont online for more", "enough to online", and blah blah blah.

since i wasnt a good promise- keeper, i dare to say that i will keep onlining until.. i dont know maybe until later which i don't know really when it is. complicated. live for today. and tomorrow i hold an examanations.

What the heck that i'm trying to say??

Desperately need motivations!!

tomorrow i'll have the exams to do. yep it's tomorrow. tomorrow!

i kept promising myself  that i won't be online today, and the following day, til exams time is finish. but see, now, i'm face to face with my laptop and typing down some words on my blog. in other tab i downloading a songs. what a lazy ass i am.

selain itu, besok *huhu besok euy, sedih akku dengernya*  pelajaran yang diujikan esok math sama bhs.indo!!! i'm not so fvckn well at math, i'm the worst at that fvckn subj.!! how could i oh how could i ?? so much pressure. i need motivation. right now. tell me how to get that. until that i'll try to read some math books that recently i borrowed from my school's library *walaupun akhirnya ga kebaca and malah gambar bunga ma love2 all over the page*  i said i try right? that's it. internet so addictive. fb,ms,twitter,perezhilton,esnips,ebay,youtube,mtv,etc 

ya allah, mudah-mudahan besok akku bisa ngerjainnya dengan baik dan benar, berikanlah yang terbaik untukku. amiiiinnn

huh, my next thing to do it's reading math books. so many books, so little time. ohhh mmmyy goddd, i cant accept it but.. what can i do?