i change my mind as quickly as i blink

yeah, i know, the title is longer than usual but it's true.
that thought is true on how i change my mind so fast. it's sucks for me. when i was thinking of doing this and then something happened, it turns out that i despised it and start to thinking of doing that. and in the end i do nothing. i'm not doing this or that.

it's like every decision that was made by me is not fixed. it may change in every second. i hate it because somehow if i 100% want to do this then i consider it again, i feel like i wont doing this. even though i know exactly by doing this is much better than do nothing or just stay at home.

i'm in the middle of the huge confusion. my mom knock my door and tell me to sleep just now. so i will continue this next time.

smelyalata :)

you, bird of the summer

You came with the season,

as the first swallow sang

A brown headed stranger,

with a five-letter name

We planted our kisses

where the wild berries grow

my feet sprouted wings and

I flew all the way home

My cheeks red like fire engines

racing straight to the heat of your skin

and I know our days are numbered,

early bird of the summer

you’ll fly south just as the fall begins

The leaves changed their colors

the schoolyards were filled

My coat with the patches

barely keeps out the chill

You sent me a postcard from a town out of state,

I wish it were warmer

I hope you’re the same

The fields where we wandered were golden

Now only muddy my boots

I know I should recover,

you’re a bird of the summer,

I was wrong to try and capture you


Gone is the pale hand of winter

Here is the first flush of may

And soon I will discover whether birds of the summer fly in circles or just fly away